People vs. God: No Comparison

Hello!!!  It’s been so long since I’ve taken time to post anything for you all. I’ve been diligently working on another project that I’m honored, and excited to soon share with you!!   I always talk about my passion for writing, whether poetry, love letters to God, inspirational quotes, or the like.  I want to share with you what God has given me, what was confirmed so many times before now, and why I just now came around to believing it.   Growing up, you do things, some you love, others, not so much.  As children, we find out what we love, and we continue doing it because it makes us feel good and WE HAVE DISCOVERED THAT WE ARE GREAT AT IT!!  The thing that others may struggle with, you did it with ease.  Maybe, you were like me and never really thought nothing of it.  Maybe you were like me, and didn’t believe how great you were, even when people told you.   I have been told that it isn’t up to others to help us realize our greatness or to even define it.  We must realize the greatness within us, no matter what those around us may say.   I have always been an open book, trusting too easily, getting hurt, and learning along the way that not everyone will see or even appreciate your greatness.  In fact, some will see your greatness, but because they don’t want you to realize it, they offer up negativity, doubt, and fear,  instead of positivity, support, and motivation to help you along the way.  They are intimidated by what God has placed in you that allows you to stand out.  They end up being so focused on your greatness, and the light that shines within you, they don’t realize that they too, have something that God has placed inside of them as well.  We all do.  Whether we ever tap into it or not, is a different post.

 Years ago, I remember being in prayer, and the Lord told me that I would write a book.  So, of course, I took that excitement and shared the news with a few people.  I never stopped to ask God if he wanted me to release what he had given me.  Looking back, and being further along in my relationship with him now, I see that sometimes the Lord gives us things that are just meant for us at that moment.  He will gives us more as we continue to follow him.  So, here is where I messed up.  I told people what he’d given me.  Shortly after, I grew impatient, took matters into my own hands, attempted to write the book myself, AND I stopped following him as closely as I had been.  WHAT A DISASTER THAT WAS!!  No wonder, things didn’t work out!  He gave me the vision, but I totally hijacked it for reasons that would not bring glory to his name.  Wrong, I know.  But, I’m being totally honest because I don’t want you to make the same mistake that I did.  I’m always willing to share my mistakes, and share with you the result of me making the mistake in the hope that you won’t do the same.  

Flashback:  I remember having lunch with a friend and since it had been a while, we were just sharing what was new in our lives.  During this conversation, I shared with her God’s plan for me.  She wasn’t negative, but she didn’t seem excited or even like she half way believed what I told her.  When she asked me what the book would be about, I told her.   The look on her face, her response, and body language were all indicators that she was not going to be a supporter.  At the moment, doubt and fear came upon me.  I thought to myself, “she didn’t SAY that I couldn’t do this, she didn’t SAY that she wouldn’t support me, so WHY am I all of a sudden questioning what GOD TOLD ME”?   Body language, and facial expressions are indeed forms of communication too!  So, because I prematurely shared something that God had given me, I opened the door for someone to come in and speak against it.  As a result, my writing slowed down, my faith in God and his promises faded quickly, and I no longer believed in the vision God gave me, or myself for that matter.  I truly want to encourage you when I say that whatever God has given you, ALWAYS BELIEVE IN IT, no matter what others say.  It may not happen today, next week, or next month, but when God has given you something, have a heart of gratitude, have patience, and seek him continuously on it.

This past weekend, I had the most amazing time at a Writer’s Retreat, which is actually the inspiration for this post today.   I was so blessed by what I saw, heard, and learned.  The testimonies, the healed hurt’s from the past of other’s and how God showed his grace and mercy to them just like he showed me.  So many beautiful people, all willing to be transparent enough with delicate and intimate details of their lives to bring glory to the only one who could ever get them to where they are today.  None other than our Heavenly Father.  We all had a lot in common.  Listening to the testimonies, I was reminded and felt led to share this:

When we put our trust in others before we learn to fully and solely trust God, we may have to take a detour ultimately  changing our ETA to the destination that he is calling us to.  He knows better than anyone else, what plans he has for us, and those things cant be taken away by anyone.   So, I encourage you, even if no one else believes in you, continue to believe in yourself, and more importantly, continue to believe in and trust God.  Stay focused and stay on the path that he has set out for you.  If you allow him to lead you, you’ll end up exactly where he needs you to be.

God is Love,

Tricia

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Attacks Will Come

Before I knew the authority God has given me to speak against the things the enemy used to distract me from carrying what God has called me to do, it never dawned on me that each time I sat down to read my bible, each time I was getting ready for church, each time I prepared myself to share a testimony, that something would happen that prevented me from doing so.  Whether it was the kids suddenly at each other’s throats, or a sudden voice bringing doubt or fear, or me feeling sleepy the moment I sat down to clear my mind to be able to hear my Father’s voice. IT WAS ALWAYS SOMETHING. The thing is, back then, I had no clue what was going on. I didn’t recognize the spiritual attacks, and because of that, the enemy won.  EACH…AND…EVERY…TIME.

Presently, I’m beyond grateful that I’m  able to say the total opposite.

So, my message to you today is this:

You better believe that anytime you have a message for God’s people that the enemy will try to stop you and distract you using any and everything that he can. You also better believe that the God that has called you to do his work has equipped you to do so, meaning that any trial, any test, and any weakness that the devil may come at you with, you are fully able to overcome it and continue to do the work that God has called you to do. Push through. Remember that you have a purpose. Things that you have gone through and overcome, the pain and tears, and triumphs.  There’s a reason the enemy wants to stop you. He knows you’re greatness, but he also knows that when he reminds you of your weaknesses and your past,  that it does something to you. Remember where your strength comes from.  Draw from that and move forward. Don’t focus on the pain or pressure, but focus on the promise and the purpose. Don’t focus on the lies of the enemy that produce doubt and fear. Focus on the lives that your testimony will set free.  What you went through wasn’t just for you. God used you, gave you his strength and courage to endure because even when you didn’t trust yourself, he trusted you to be bold and use your story for his glory. He picked you up, washed you off, healed and delivered you and replaced the love you had for yourself with a burning love and desire for him. Be encouraged.  It was, and always will be bigger than you. KEEP GOING. NOW is not the time to stop. NOW is the time to MOVE. SO MOVE.

God is love,

Tricia


Restoration

 

There are many times when I have moments to myself and my mind drifts back to situations that I thought I would never live through.  I thought for sure, “this is it”.  There were even times that the pain, hatred, (self hatred included),  that I had was unbearable and I wasn’t completely sure that even if by some miracle, I was to make it through, that I wanted to live to see how life would be without the pain.  I conditioned myself to live with it and hide it behind a forced smile.  Meanwhile, behind the smile, email and text responses, and even Facebook posts, I was hurting.  I’m not talking about a paper cut hurt or even a scrape on the knee hurt.  I’m talking about an overwhelming, heart wrenching, mental, physical, and spiritual grief and suffering hurt.  I truly thought that there was no other way to live.  This is the life that I was use to.  This was my norm.  Living life without living at all.

 As I listen to the lyrics sung by Elevation Worship, my heart becomes so full, the meaning penetrates my spirit and God’s presence falls upon me so heavily.  

“A miracle can happen now
For the spirit of the Lord is here
The evidence is all around
That the spirit of the Lord is here”

 As my mind travels back to the present, it’s so sweet to recall each and every victory and testimony.  Victories and triumph’s that prove that it was NOBODY BUT GOD WHO BROUGHT ME THROUGH.  The miracle that I mentioned above was and still is God.  The evidence, is the breath that I breathe daily.  It’s the love and forgiveness that I have for those who sought out to purposely harm me.  It’s the compassion of Christ that I’m able to show, that others see in me and question how I’m able to give it.  It’s so sweet to remember the refreshing and the renewing that I felt as I allowed God to take over.

 I know many can relate to times when God says “Go left”  and without even considering following his direction,  we’ve already calculated the distance from where we stand to where we want to be. What just happened is all of a sudden, our faith in ourselves weighs more than our trust in God, and our response to him is “Hmm, this way is shorter.   I’m going to take a right”.  When we don’t follow God’s direction, we end up in situations that could’ve been avoided.  Even though the calculation in distance looks shorter and makes sense to you, there is something along the path that you have chosen that God already knows about, but you are unable to see.  The direction he gave you may be longer, BUT the path that has been laid out for you is one that is imperative for you to travel.  This path is where your healing, deliverance, faith, love, and purpose will unfold.  We tend to think that we know better than God at times and we stray.  Even if and when this happens, when we turn to God, his arms are open wide, ready to receive us giving us his love, grace, and mercy.  Isn’t his love, grace, and mercy the reason why we are still here?? It’s all a process.  The path, your path, my path, is a process.  No two path’s will be the same.  But the God leading us and covering us on the path is.

In order for restoration to take place, we have to go through a process.  I have had to allow myself to be stripped of everything that I was holding onto.  In this process, I have learned to depend on God because everything else failed me.  In this process, I’ve learned that we can’t place God like expectations on man with limited capabilities.  I and many of you have experienced and may still be experiencing devastating levels of unhappiness that results in debilitating pain.  My heart goes out to you yes, but my prayer is that you allow God to restore you.  Stop looking to people to fix what only God can.  Our Creator knows us inside and out and knows exactly how to fix and reprogram us back to our original state.  Before we allowed people and situations to change us, and before we held onto the hurt and other things that we’ve felt and tried to let go of on our own.  I’m here to tell you that the process is not easy.  And the series of events that has taken place isn’t to cause you pain, but to push you to depend on God to bring you through.  Yes, there will be times that you will not want to feel or think about any of it.   But, I can testify that in the process, there is growth, a new found faith, trust, the true meaning and understanding of love, and the makings of a clean and pure heart.  

Restoration is a process.  Don’t turn your back on yours.

 

God is love,

Tricia 

 

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